I noticed I do not publish my work and writings as much as I used to. That has to change.
Ex-teenagers are evaluated based on output and not potential. One must never forget how to play like a teenager. My guiding force is to go where my fear is because there is my task.
Everything I have ever done has been to serve one life purpose:
To build from 0 → 1 and from 1 → N while acquiring the skills, friends, and mental models.
I had an itch for startups since I was 17. For the past 9 years, I identified a common thread.
The best way for a founder to scale a company is:
The problem here is that if the founder delegates to operators that don’t have the foresight to pivot when things aren’t working and reach out to people to help them through that process, then they will keep doing that forever and company progress will go into maintenance mode and stall.
In 2026, I have gotten increasingly interested in sales and got the chance to help close deals as an FDE at Default. It was a humbling experience because I got to accept that no one cares about your engineering skills and knowledge. No one. They care about the problem you are solving for them. Even a harder pill to swallow is "all things being equal people buy from their friends. So make everything else equal then go make a lot of friends.”
As I look back on my life, I am even more convinced that you can do whatever you want with your life. I have taken on a new language, a new instrument, pivoted careers. Whenever I felt low, I was reminded of this tweet by a role model of mine, Nader Dabit.
Is it the clarity that you need or is it patience? The biggest challenge of our generation is enantiodromia - the idea that anything pushed to its extreme flips into its opposite. When self-criticism becomes self-sabotage and self-compassion becomes stagnation, it is worth asking which voice did we internalize and are we the one steering?
I am writing this on my 26th birthday, right after I suffered a loss. Thankfully I am on the ocean in Hawaii which helps. Being underwater is the closest you can get to being on a different planet. Surrounded by different sounds, creatures, body movement, constrains, everything changes. Surfing, swimming, scuba diving have been the three things I enjoy most this year. I scheduled an expensive vacation half the world away and had to enjoy it with my boyfriend despite a recent sad event while turning 26 - none of this was not on my bingo card. However, it was a necessary time to sit and reflect. The ocean is a textbook trigger for parasympathetic rebound where your body ping pongs into fight or flight for a few seconds then swings back into rest as the waves pass you. So does everything else in life. Combined with the awe and vastness of the underwater universe, it is impossible for your self-focus not to shrink.